No words.

You know that “youth conference feeling”? The one where you are singing with hundreds of people and the speaker has really brought the Gospel, and tons and tons of youth (including yourself) are coming up to the front of the room to pray? That emotional, tear-jerking moement where you and a hundred of your (now) friends are realizing God really is all that matters, all together? (Some of you are nodding, some of you just confused. Just trust me on this one.) I have that feeling right now. Except I am by myself, in a coffee shop, age 26; and the only thing speaking to me is God’s word and His still, sweet voice. The place He currently has me on this journey…my, it is sweet.
I can smell the honeysuckles after a summer rain, feel the embrace of a warm fire on a winter’s night; experience the security of being wrapped up in a towel right after it has left the dryer. This is how my life feels right now. I realize I’m not making 100% sense right now, and I’m okay with that. Some seasons of life are like “inside jokes” with the Lord, and this is the beginning of one of those seasons for myself. This morning, I am aware of one of the many rewards that comes with walking through this life with the Lord. He has brought me to a place where His provision does not seem like a foreign truth; it is right in my face. And friends: there are no words; which is why I’m stumbling across this computer board attempting to express my gratitude to Him. I want to give Him glory by sharing with you all. We may not be in an auditorium, praising Him all together in some beautiful song, but the concept is still the same. He has brought me to my knees the past few weeks, and I feel giddy inside about all that is to come.
           “Great is thy faithfulness, Great is thy faithfulness, morning by morning new mercies I see; all I have needed thy hand hath provided; great is thy faithfulness, Lord unto me!”
I see the Lord, sitting up on His mighty throne, smiling… and not just today, but in the days before; knowing the joy I was going to experience as He poured out unnumerable blessings in His perfectly orchestrated time. I know, I know. Even what seems like suffering is a blessing. May I rejoice in those times, too. But oh, to enter into a time of “jumping in the air, carefree praise” for the Lord. He deserves this always; but I want to give it to Him (as I am so aware of it) today. I know that a more difficult season could be just around the bend, and I’m okay with that. Because I trust Him; and I know that He is confidently leading me into still waters with every passing winter or storm. Because He is God. Because He is good. Because He is for us.
I must make one thing clear: this has nothing to do with me or my efforts to be a “good” Christian: been there, done that, failed miserably. I do not serve Him as I should or love through His love on a daily basis. I go back and forth in my trusting in and leaning on to Him; but He never lets me go because He knows my heart and because He never changes. Morgan is nothing outside of His hold on my life.
Whatever your circumstances, whatever is going on in your life, however you view God, hear my authentic plea: walking with Him makes ANY season sweeter; the ups, the downs, the in-betweens. When you do choose to hold on to His grasp on you in the midst of trying times… the aftermath is that much more wonderful. He is smiling down on YOU today, on us. He sees the big picture, and it is good. Let’s celebrate Him together.

3 thoughts on “No words.

  1. Brittany April 17, 2012 / 3:19 PM

    Incredible Morgan…loved hearing your heart in this. God truly is faithful…more so than we can even comprehend. Praying you continue to feel his presence, before you and behind you and beside you and carrying you, as you and Hugh walk this journey! love you!
    -Brittany

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